The past few esbats I've celebrated, I've done on the bluff over town. Alone, in the pitch-dark, with only the bright full moon to illuminate the space (or, at new moon, utter, still darkness). It's absolutely peaceful. I can feel the essence of the animals around us, and being surrounded by them and the trees makes me feel like Goddess and God are hugging me. I always leave a silver coin for tribute-- I push it into the ground. I wonder if anyone will ever dig the area up and find all that money, and what they'll think? LOL.

I'm moving back to NJ this weekend, and bringing Edmund with me. Poor little guy, it's gonna be rough on him. I hope he'll be okay during the trip and after. Please, God, protect Edmund and keep him calm while we travel. It will be sad to leave this place-- I've never felt so close to nature as here, where it's still so primitive. But I must move on to the next stage of my life.

Many thanks, Goddess, for allowing me this time here to heal and find myself, finally. The purpose of life is to live, and I've only been surviving here for the past 4 years.